Out of the dead (i think) I know I know I know... what a horrible blogger friend! BUT if you only knew...
I felt for awhile now. Can't explain it. Thought about saying goodbye to my blog and several other things on line. why? don't know really.
I feel bad when I can't get online like I want, I feel bad when I can't read and catch up about your lives, etc. Bad. I feel bad enough about my life in general so adding yours to it, well it sucks.
I have been in a MAJOR FUNK as of lates... not wanting to posts my sad sad "what about me" posts and not wanting to admit that sometimes I go through these times and not wanting to say that:
"Hey, my marriage is needing some TLC" and that
"I have not lost any weight since loosing 24.5 lbs, when my goal was 40!!"
"I failed my test that I studied so hard for..."
I turn 35 this month. I feel old.
However, on my birthday I am having one of my best friends "40th Surprise Birthday" at my home. 75+ People. Lots of plans... stress.
I want it to be about her. Not me on that day.
I would love ideas about having a surprise party. It is being catered, band with DJ, and tons of family and friends but i am feeling stressed... as always.
I not only have this party to plan for but again I am studying for my test.
again i am sorry for not being "out there" but some things are better unsaid. ya know?