Getting up close and personal...

you are all aware i have not blogged in some time. mostly of my test that i have been diligently studying for (scheduled (again) now for June 9Th), but also for something more personal. someone more personal i should say... my sister.

FYI: i have been in a funk since she left and blogging was our way of staying in touch with each other. funny but we both have been kinda sorta "absent" in a way...

we have a weird and complicated relationship (as do most families) but this time her leaving the states caused me major sadness and agony. seeing her as a mother and having my nephew here was something very special to me! 2.5 months we had this year together. granted she always is the one to come here but not for as long... 2.5 months does wonders (and here we thought we would KILL each other, not thought.. i think she actually planned a scheme!) and that is a lot of time together after 5 years of her being gone. and after how many years since we actually lived together??? MANY. I do not want to age myself in this blog, only her... (snort) (cough) ;)~

she made me start this blog almost one year ago (June sometime i think) because she moved overseas from Texas (fell in love) but swore that blogging would keep us "connected"! she set it up for me. she picked out the very first layout, fonts, colors, you name it. she even named it "Jahooni World". my nickname in Arabic is Jahooni (jahooni=?, i dunno???) she has yet to explain it to me. do tell tania!

it took me months i think to call to ask for my log-in and password (lol- i have come far) and she also thinks I live in my own little "world in Cali" (which BTW I have lived here pretty much on my own since the day I walked down my High School graduation podium! so maybe jahooni world = me?, i dunno?) but it's been almost a year now of blogging so this next step for me, is well... a step. a first.

my sister is a poet. she writes. she expresses herself in her words. her thoughts. her sentences. her "being". she inspires me.

this is for her...

THE RAIN IS FALLING
SOMETIMES HARD SOMETIMES SOFTLY
JUST LIKE OUR WORDS
SOMETIMES HARD SOMETIMES SOFTLY

I THINK OF YOU. OF HIM.
I THINK OF US, HER, YOU AND ME.
LAUGHING
PLAYING
DANCING
ARGUING
TALKING
CRYING
JUST BEING...

AND THE RAIN KEEPS FALLING
DO YOU HEAR IT? CAN YOU FEEL IT?
IT IS WARM. STREAMING DOWN FROM THE SKY SO SOFTLY.

I THINK OF YOU WITH YOUR HAND IN THE AIR
TOUCHING THE DROPS
HE IS TOUCHING THE DROPS
SHE IS TOUCHING THE DROPS
I AM TOUCHING THE DROPS
AND WE ARE TOGETHER AGAIN

SO SOFTLY...

Back... Kinda, Sorta.

my test has been postponed to june 9th. i was ready kinda sorta for 2 days from now but again my assistant is in Hawaii and there is about a 100+2x1000= things to do this week in my office... so anyhoo, until then. but i am ready. so ready that i gave myself a stiff neck from hoovering over the laptop and monitor over the last couple weeks... but anyhoo,

i am going now to check on YOU!

Stressed OUT!

I have been absent. Have you noticed? Or do you care???? ;)~

The reason being: I have my TEST next Thursday in San Diego. A test that I failed over 3 years ago and a test that even though I know must of the stuff, I am freaking out to take it again.... tests scare me. I freeze up. I have so much pressure from work that it even makes it worse for me. And my "assistant"... well she left again today for Hawaii even though she knew I needed time off for it! Lordy, why can't I live in her shoes for one day... or at least one week in Hawaii?!

I spent Mother's Day weekend alone at home while my family was camping and having a grand ole' time! How sucky was that? Yep, it sucked. But I had to study.

Dedication and hard work they say is what it will take to pass it. I am tyring but it's been tuff. I need a HUG. My brain feels like Jello. My body aches.

I am not gone forever and hope that everyone will be around again to Congrat me once I have passed or to console me if I don't... stay tuned.

yummy and more...

The concert was great... tons of acts. Eagles were of course the Eagles BUT




THIS MAN! He was Yummy. All over Yummy. Mike Ness is fantabulous in concert! Rock on I say....

Cheers!

Concerts

I love concerts. I have been to so many over my life span that actually I have lost count. First one being like 12 years old at a Def Leapord concert with my sister Um Naief (which BTW- where in the heck are YOU) and I remember thinking to myself what is that funny smell?

But tomorrow night will be the first time I will be seeing the Eagles in concert. This weekend out near Palm Springs is the annual Stagecoach Concert. 3 days, 3 stages, lots of crazy and lots of fun. Mainly country artists perform but tomorrow night are headliners like John Fogerty, Mike Ness (lead singer from Social Distortion), Eagles and gosh so many others, I forgot.

My friends are picking me up from work at noon. Well drive out there. Check into our room. Go grab dinner and a few drinks and then off to suffer in the desert sun. It is going to be freakin HOT! I'll be wishing for the "Hotel California" by night fall.

Anyways... have a great Friday everyone and Cheers!