Updates

I am over the "Poor Me Pitty Party Rountine"
I was in a funk. Give me a break. We all have those times don't we?? But I do thank everyone for their sincere well wishes and the ones that said, get over yourself and all that! ha ha
The cure: lots of sleep, wine and sex. Wait, I didn't get the full dose of all three so I don't think I am fully cured. ;)~

Having a HUGE party for my girlfriend Saturday for her 40th birthday. Getting a bit nervous with 75+ people that will be at my home. Spent days planting and weeding and grooming my back yard. Getting the dance floor/DJ area prepared with twinkle lights and hopefully a disco ball if I can find one in just 2 days. Food has been ordered. I think her brother ordered too much but since the invitations were left open for the time the party stops, maybe all the drunks will stay at my home, not drive and eat all the leftovers for breakfast. Hoping all the planning and preparations pays off. We shall see...

Good News: I get my braces off on July 22nd! Can't wait to kiss for the first time without them! Any volunteers? ;)~

My sister Um Naief sent me the best birthday gifts, have to shout out to her again that I love everything and the shoes... the shoes are fab. What is it with a great pair of shoes?

Reggie and Matt-Man were worried about me. Don't fret boys, I am not going anywhere. Just on the low for awhile there. I can't retire JAHOONI just yet!

Have a great day everyone. Happy HNT for those of you out there! (Don't ask. I will never do it)!!!

I am SORRY....

Hey peeps...
Out of the dead (i think) I know I know I know... what a horrible blogger friend! BUT if you only knew...

Dead.
I felt for awhile now. Can't explain it. Thought about saying goodbye to my blog and several other things on line. why? don't know really.
I feel bad when I can't get online like I want, I feel bad when I can't read and catch up about your lives, etc. Bad. I feel bad enough about my life in general so adding yours to it, well it sucks.

I have been in a MAJOR FUNK as of lates... not wanting to posts my sad sad "what about me" posts and not wanting to admit that sometimes I go through these times and not wanting to say that:
"Hey, my marriage is needing some TLC" and that
"I have not lost any weight since loosing 24.5 lbs, when my goal was 40!!"
"I failed my test that I studied so hard for..."

Eeeerk. Life.
I turn 35 this month. I feel old.
However, on my birthday I am having one of my best friends "40th Surprise Birthday" at my home. 75+ People. Lots of plans... stress.

I want it to be about her. Not me on that day.

I would love ideas about having a surprise party. It is being catered, band with DJ, and tons of family and friends but i am feeling stressed... as always.

I not only have this party to plan for but again I am studying for my test.

again i am sorry for not being "out there" but some things are better unsaid. ya know?

My TEST IS TOMORROW...

Send good vibes my way peoples!!! I have been studying like a mad dog and my test is tomorrow (oh crap, it is 12:05am), so TODAY in LA at 1PM!

I want this more than anything right now and I doubt myself every waking minute because I failed it 3 years ago...I would study and sleep, I would wake up from naps, would study and then sleep, and now I am WIDE AWAKE and CRAMMING! My test has been delayed over the past several months due to death, life, work, etc. BUT TOMORROW IS THE DAY! WHEW... i can barely say that without my stomach turning into knots. I know I know... it is just a test right? But I freeze up really bad when taking major exams!

This is why I have been absent. Stress. Worry. Life. Insurance. Test.

If I pass, I will be on line tomorrow having a celebratory drink on my behalf! If not I will be crying myself to sleep and taking the exam on Wednesday!

Until then,
Peace. Love. Happiness. And to all a good NIGHT! Oh and Happy Father's Day to those of you that have born children of the corn! Hee Hee

2 Weeks Silent....

I did it!!! Didn't think I could or would but I did... What was it that I did? Well I am SURE everyone noticed but I took a 2 week hiatus from my blog. Why? I don't know. It wasn't something I planned. The last post was not intentional (being blank) but when I posted it and then left it that way, I decided okay let's see how long I can keep my mouth shut. 2 weeks is a long time to stay silent.

I was feeling stressed out. Pressure from not being able to check every one's blogs everyday. Getting caught up at times with it that I actually would lie awake at night thinking of this person or that person's life, etc. while all along my own life needed some TLC. Does anyone ever feel this way? Or am I a NUT? Go ahead you can be honest. I can take it!

And also my test is Monday. I know I know... it got pushed back one week because my boss was in New York on vacation and I was swamped at work. Then last week I had a death in my husband's family. That was stressful and consuming and driving back and forth to Orange County. stressful. exhausting. EXPENSIVE! Gas here in Cali is $4.49 per gallon and we have a HUGE Diesel Truck that is over $5 per gallon. I think I need to start hooking just to pay for gas!!!! ;)~

Then I had to finish my year with my Brownie Troop.
Then today is my daughter's last day of 2nd grade! I can't believe it. I remember walking her to her first day of kindergarten like it was yesterday... boo hoo hoo.
Then my dog ate my mother's glasses and attacked her. Had to send him off to the rescue shelter.
Then I threw my neck out from studying and being stressed.

Anyways... have you missed me? ;)~
Okay let me go check out HNT!

Getting up close and personal...

you are all aware i have not blogged in some time. mostly of my test that i have been diligently studying for (scheduled (again) now for June 9Th), but also for something more personal. someone more personal i should say... my sister.

FYI: i have been in a funk since she left and blogging was our way of staying in touch with each other. funny but we both have been kinda sorta "absent" in a way...

we have a weird and complicated relationship (as do most families) but this time her leaving the states caused me major sadness and agony. seeing her as a mother and having my nephew here was something very special to me! 2.5 months we had this year together. granted she always is the one to come here but not for as long... 2.5 months does wonders (and here we thought we would KILL each other, not thought.. i think she actually planned a scheme!) and that is a lot of time together after 5 years of her being gone. and after how many years since we actually lived together??? MANY. I do not want to age myself in this blog, only her... (snort) (cough) ;)~

she made me start this blog almost one year ago (June sometime i think) because she moved overseas from Texas (fell in love) but swore that blogging would keep us "connected"! she set it up for me. she picked out the very first layout, fonts, colors, you name it. she even named it "Jahooni World". my nickname in Arabic is Jahooni (jahooni=?, i dunno???) she has yet to explain it to me. do tell tania!

it took me months i think to call to ask for my log-in and password (lol- i have come far) and she also thinks I live in my own little "world in Cali" (which BTW I have lived here pretty much on my own since the day I walked down my High School graduation podium! so maybe jahooni world = me?, i dunno?) but it's been almost a year now of blogging so this next step for me, is well... a step. a first.

my sister is a poet. she writes. she expresses herself in her words. her thoughts. her sentences. her "being". she inspires me.

this is for her...

THE RAIN IS FALLING
SOMETIMES HARD SOMETIMES SOFTLY
JUST LIKE OUR WORDS
SOMETIMES HARD SOMETIMES SOFTLY

I THINK OF YOU. OF HIM.
I THINK OF US, HER, YOU AND ME.
LAUGHING
PLAYING
DANCING
ARGUING
TALKING
CRYING
JUST BEING...

AND THE RAIN KEEPS FALLING
DO YOU HEAR IT? CAN YOU FEEL IT?
IT IS WARM. STREAMING DOWN FROM THE SKY SO SOFTLY.

I THINK OF YOU WITH YOUR HAND IN THE AIR
TOUCHING THE DROPS
HE IS TOUCHING THE DROPS
SHE IS TOUCHING THE DROPS
I AM TOUCHING THE DROPS
AND WE ARE TOGETHER AGAIN

SO SOFTLY...

Back... Kinda, Sorta.

my test has been postponed to june 9th. i was ready kinda sorta for 2 days from now but again my assistant is in Hawaii and there is about a 100+2x1000= things to do this week in my office... so anyhoo, until then. but i am ready. so ready that i gave myself a stiff neck from hoovering over the laptop and monitor over the last couple weeks... but anyhoo,

i am going now to check on YOU!